All the efforts paid off=)

So guys..
As I posted yesterday,
today was our choir competition

We got first runner-up
It was really out of my expectation
you know when they finished announcing all those sagu hati,
my heart went up to heaven
and I burst into tears.
I can't control my emotion
but just cried like a kid
not only me I think...all of us were like..crying..screaming..shivering..
Lastly we got NAIB JOHAN

You know..a huge stone just straight dropped from my heart
and we hugged each other
wiped off the tears and went up to the stage proudly to receive the trophy..
You didn't experiend,you wouldn't know how we felt on that moment..

Because..
We encountered a lot of problems before the competition
Let me list out those I could remember..

Feb: We can't even managed to find a coach to train us
March:Finally, we got a coach,but the fees isn't that cheap..We got to pay RM500 per month to her..and we do not have enough ppl to raise it to RM500
April: Sports day practices,crashed with our practices' time..
May: The wrong news about the competition will be held on June..
June: Finally we knew that competition will be held on the end of July but we still cannot sing the songs properly
July: We always sang out of tunes..no harmony and dynamic at all
Two weeks before the competition: Arguements about our clothes for competition
One week before the competition: Still cannot make sure the accurate key of the songs!!
Five days before the competition: Pn Judy admitted..and we did not have a teacher to bring us go to competition
Four days before the competition: We got scolded from Pn Nur about pass given was not the time that we were supposed to come out


Today,which was the real competition day
We were supposed to leave school by 6.45am
there were some girls came late..
even we went without both of them
but luckily my tears touched the driver and teacher,
then they decided to return to school
yea..at last we managed to get all of us into bus and started our journey to competition

All these problems..
We tried to solve one by one..
We didn't give up until the last minute..
Cause..our hearts are together,only for one thing,we want to make the school choir stands out
and yea,,WE DID IT!!
GOOD JOB

About myself:
I'm so proud of myself today..
I managed to bring the whole team in a enjoyable atmosphere and so do the audiences

I really appreciate Pn Ong who is our choir coach,
the whole choir members who accompanied me throughout the journey..
Without them,I can't even know how to conduct,I am honest!
Yayy..choir rocks!
We rocks!
St mary ROCKS!!!!

yea..
Today we got drill competition as well
I was taking part in it
omg...
I should thank to the rain..
cause...due to the rain,they had to postpone the time of drill competition
which I managed to rush back and took part
God is always helping me..
He knew that we can't back on time..
so the rain....solved the problem..
Finally I removed my make up,changed into my GB uniform..
and one more prayer..we started the second competition today..
omg...it was tiring...after I reached home..only I realized that I didn't even have my breakfast since from morning..

So,as what I had promise to myself..
after this week..
There is no more koko
I'll start my new life..
focus on my SPM..
I'll never forget I had such a wonderful koko life in high school..
I'm proud to be a ST MARIAN!
yayy!peace!
peeeepooo....night~

Choir competiton 2011

Yea..
Tomorrow is the day we've been waiting for quite a long time
If you ask me,what is actually so fun about choir singing?
I will tell you,
choir is part of my life too

I remember the year when I first entered the room
Looking at my seniors' faces
I was very excited..
and when I first listened to them,
I felt that voice can actually be presented in that awesome way
I realized I was more keen on choir and finally I joined
It was..Year 2003
yea..when I was standard three in primary school

Now,year 2011
I noticed..8 years I didn't even have the thought of giving up
Slowly,I grew up in choir
I learnt a lot of things in choir
I appreciated there is a voice crew named''choir''
So,I think this will be my last year in choir

and tomorrow is my final destination
Dear Lord,I know you are always there beside me
You will guide me inspite of anything happens

be a conductor isn't that easy
Withing these few months,
I learnt,yet I'm still learning to get better
Wish me luck on tomorrow..

Lastly,
I would like to declare that tomorrow will be the climax of year 2011
for me la..
cause,both heavy competition will be held on tomorrow
of course,I do pray for drill competition too
after tomorrow,
My koko life will end,
and I gotta push harder in order to get a better relationship with my new BF--SPM!
Peepo..all the best to me!=)
Night~

看见她,会看见以前的自己=)

不知道你们是否有过这样的感觉
看到某个人
你会觉得你曾经也和她一样
所以就算她多么讨人厌,
你都觉得她需要时间改变

我今天看见一个品行不是很惹人喜欢的小孩
但其实她很有她自己的想法
当长辈们在教训她时,
我好像看到以前的自己
那个总觉得自己是对的我
那个不懂事的我

我在想,
其实你们不用这样责备她
年纪再大一点
她自然就会知道现在的她是多么地不懂事
我反而觉得人一定要有任性的阶段
因为任性的后代就是定性
就由她去吧~
你越是谴责她,她就越要做给你看
所以,
让时间替你管教
总有一天,她会长大,
不用操心=)

讨厌这样的自己!

今天在学校
我做了一件不该做的蠢事!
更可悲的是,这也是我十七年来的第一次

我竟然大声地吼了一个很要好的朋友
当下的我,就是不知道怎么了,
情绪突然失控
我骂过后,我自己也被吓到了..
大家都被我这一吼吓着了..

除了对不起,还是对不起
我不应该把气出在朋友的身上,
更不用说是那么多年的好友

事后,我道歉
但我的心怎么都不能定下来
是内疚作怪
我安静地坐下来后,
很气我自己
就像HuiYing所说的,
大家不是因为我的脾气吓到,而是怎么一个从不发脾气的人在吼人呢?

那个从不与别人争吵
什么事都忍,
尽量把不愉快的成份降到最低
那才是我呀!
今天怎么了?
我好讨厌这样的自己
也许,我真的累了,是真的真的从里到外都累了
所有的事情都排在一起,
根本没有时间喘口气
而什么事情都好像非牵涉到我不可

我好想说:到这里就够了!
但你知道吗?
当我决定什么事都不理时,
剩下的却只有不负责任的眼泪..
我希望,今天的第一次,也是最后一次
我不喜欢发脾气,
我不喜欢骂人
我不喜欢冷战
更讨厌那内疚的心拼命地纠缠!

对不起!
这一次,我真的错了!

Finally I understand=)

Do you guys know something,
when you don't like a person,
but you pretend very friend or close with her..
and you think that she/he didn't notice at all..

Well,I tell you!
You are wrong!
When you started to hate a person..
She/He does have the feeling as well=)
no matter how much you try to cover
they will still know

I understand now..
When you really use your true heart to make them as your friends,
you'll definitely get back the same response=)


Whereas,
when the first gossip came out from YOUR mouth
I tell you,you'll face the same situation that she/he may gossip you behind..


So,lesson of the day,
I,Heng Chang Sin,
wouldn't hate or so called "don't like" anyone from now onwards!
I'll try to forgive and understand them!=)

失败乃成功之母?

今天,
我坐在饭厅
见爸爸在看报,
我就说:爸~我告诉你..我终于知道什么叫失败乃成功之母了!
我爸说:做么?你做什么事成功过?
我说:我就是因为失败了,所以,下次我一定成功!
他说:但成功不是失败的儿子..

我:........
想了一会儿,他怎么能够这样理所当然地回复啊?
不愧是我的爸爸!

对啊,
真的,未必,
你失败了,就一定会成功
如果只是用嘴巴说说,那谁不会?
我在想,如果真的失败乃成功之母,
那每个失败者都会成功咯?

我说我爸,
你真有你的一套!
他很少说话
但每次一开口就让我愣一下..

有时侯,
会自以为是地懂很多,
但..我的想法依然..那么幼稚
成长....是我们每个人都在经理的旅程
我希望,在这途中,
我能领悟得更多..
=)

Oh well..I'm addicted

As you guys know..
I just influenced by Ms.Jiayeen who always encouraged people to use photoshop
There you did it!
haha..I'm now officially addicted..ooppsss

Outcomes of today..
Oh well.I know they weren't that nice and mature enough
But I'll try to improve
and yea you guys can simply drop me a msg to correct me=)

A couple of days

busy about all these..

I knew that was useless..

i just found it interesting

I'm now learning indian songs as well

anyone interested..

hehe..join me thanks=)

Nights guys~

*Grandma*

Grandma left us about 8 months ago..
I was folding the 'paper offerings'from the early morning
I miss her..T.T
In our taoism's tradition..
there is one prayer called'cross over the bridge'
I'm not sure about that..
I just followed what mummy asked me to do..

This will be the 4th prayer for my grandma since she passed away
Drop on Tuesday,
again,we have to wake up early to prepare all the foods and paper offerings
and all my relatives will come to my house..

That is very familiar to all of us
We even know when to pray and when to eat
Perhaps for them,thats only a prayer,
or maybe a tradition..
Thus,not much feeling towards days like this anymore..

But,I do have the feeling
You guys don't know how I actually felt and how much of bloods coming out
when I hold the incense..

I miss her..
Until now,
I don't even have the courage to open her clothes cabinet..
Cause I knew that my tears couldn't bear with it..

Ah ma..how are you in the heaven?
Do you know sometimes..
when I'm alone in the room..
My tears kept falling down and my mind had only you...
Ah ma..I Miss You!

A random post=)

Wow..
I just realized..
photoshop is so cool!!fuyoohh!!

Before

After

Muahaha..
Kinda addicted to photoshop and editing=)
heeeheee....fun fun fun!!
I'll try to make nicer next time..
heeeheeee..not bad not bad^_^